Forever

In my eyes, this life is pointless as well. Everything and everyone just live on some concept that life is something worth doing… Sadly I can’t understand this concept too well myself.

However, committing suicide isn’t the way. There are people around you in your life that care about you and wish you well. Committing suicide wouldn’t only take your life, but their’s as well (in a way). It would wreck them, completely. Devoid their life of any beauty or love, any hope or wonder and any song or happiness.

Some people say that the emotion people feel while depressed, is very similar to the emotion one feels after losing a loved one. After knowing how horrible this pain is… I would never be able to inflict such pain onto another person, regardless of whether I love them or hate them.

Furthermore, I’d like to add that death isn’t definitely the answer. Death can produce 4 different options – Heaven / Hell, Identical life (Rebirth / Reincarnation or something of that sort) and Nothingness.

If what’s true is any of the first three options then your consciousness remains and the concept of the pointlessness of everything remains. That means death isn’t really the answer since it wouldn’t heal your pain.
If the 4th option is the correct one, the nothingness… Something that you cannot possibly fathom or imagine will happen. You will simply cease to exist. Such thing cannot fit into categories such as good or bad. It’s something completely different, and to be honest, because of that, extremely scary. This option is the only option that might change the pain you and I feel. However, I can’t exactly say that I want it since it’s so extraordinarily different from what we know.

Basically to summarize what I said, by dying you will cause unimaginable pain to the people surrounding you. On top of that, dying might not even solve your issues and problems. So it seems like such a bad gamble to take, both hurting everyone you know and perhaps not even helping yourself.

These arguments left me without a solution to this O’ so horrible problem we call depression. So… I live. I still hate every second of my life, everything is so hard, everything is so dull, and nothing ever seems to work out as I hoped it would… But there is no other option. All I can do is hope that all the massive amount of people around me who told me life is worth living, is indeed right.

I hope you decide to not take your own life, and do decide to try and give life another chance. I know it’s a lot to hope for since everything is so god damn horrible, but it’s all I can do. I wish that you will feel slightly better after you read this comment. If you’d like to talk I’ll be more than happy to chat / e-mail with you.

Sincerely,
Oak