Its been a while since I posted. Family moved down to Florida finishing up things in Indiana before I join them. Wonderful support of family made this all possible. I still struggle with the depression(she is on mean *****), but I am in control. Evil thoughts do not linger and I actually smiled and laughed the other day for the first time in awhile. Thank you everyone on this site for giving me a open ear or just a place to keep everybody updated. I don’t think I will be on this site much longer its time to start living again. My only advise to those who want it do not keep evil feeling and thoughts inside talk to somebody anybody. Don’t forget to smile and laugh. Take Care