two faced

Im not someone seeking attention, ide just like to know if anyone feels the way i do. i hate being alone, anyways i go to school like most teenegers im 14 and i have quite a few friends and am pretty easy to get along with. My closest 5 friends are pretty 2 faced, i get picked on alot and get yelled at for doing the stupidest things. i get blamed for everything and i never stand up formyself because im scared of judgement. Most of my so called friends turn there back on me or call me stupid names then expect me to apopgize when its over. Almost 2 times a week i come home crying.  everyone turns against me with the blink of an eye, and when i had told my friends i wanted to cut muself they flipped on me and didnt talk to me for a week. i have no hope and no support. Ive had this same clique since grade 5 and i cant just make all new friends. does anyone feel like this … ever ?