I’ve been handling things so well lately.
But tonight everything fell to pieces. Â I can’t stop crying, which is odd for me. I hardly ever cry.
I’m trying my best not to cut myself but it is getting to the point that i am craving it, i need it so much that i feel like my heart is going to explode.
I need to hurt myself! I want to die so much.
These comments are so generic but  i don’t know any other way to express myself right now. My mind is so jumbled.
I hate this so much.
Die, die die.
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Dear Solace,
I cry with you and feel the pain in your heart. Sometimes I cry for no reason, other than to think of my life and the mistakes I’ve made. We all cut ourselves in different ways, I hope you are not talking about slashing yourself physically. Please hold off doing that for now, since your mind is confused and your thoughts jumbled. Allow yourself to feel sad and to cry as long as you want to. It’s ok to wish you were not here, suffering as you are. These are stressful times for many, though it may seem like everybody but you is happy. But I promise you that if you are patient with life and with God, something good is going to come your way real soon. Please believe me. I have seen it happen a hundred times to others in your situation. You are drowning in your sorrow now, but someone will pull you out just in time! You will see.
Email me! Im here to listen and talk! My email is smexiicat.meoww@gmail.com