we were perfect. eveything was picking up. I hadnt hurt myself in two god damned year. he had finally gotten his music career off the ground, i had my photography picking up, we had just found out i was pregnant, i finished high school, he finished college. but they got selfish and kicked him out. they had no right. he started that band and put his soul into it. he snapped this sunday… they took him to the same place he was in when he was 15. Â i am not allowed to talk to him or see him. no one care that i am carrying his baby, they only see that legally we are not family. I love him, he saved me from myself and has supported me through everything. he is the only one i have. even though our home was a shitty little apartment its the best place i have ever lived. and now it feels haunted, empty, unfamiliar, and unwelcoming.
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Its hard to know what to say to this. A part of me wants to say that he shouldn’t have gotten a girl pregnant if he was unstable enough to get himself commited. No offense intended it just doesn’t sound like either of you was in a stable enough place and ready for that kind of responsibility. That being said I really hope you are wrong about there being very little chance of him getting out any time soon, maybe he will just spend a few days in there and then he will be feeling better and they can send him home.
it wasnt planned. we were very careful but as god would have it, it wasnt enough. he was originally supposed to be only 3 days but he broke doen again when they said he couldnt see us. the last thing he said to me before they took the phone was “if i breakdown again i dont know how long they’re gonna keep me here. dont lose faith in me Pikachu. I love you. Tell Ezra daddy wi…”
lol Pikachu, I have never been in a mental ward so I really don’t know how they work but many of the posters on here have so they could probably give you a much better insight into the system and how much time he might potentially be facing in there. If they started with it being only at 3 days though I still can’t imagine that they added that much time to it. He will probably get out again though you said he was there before when he was 15 and he got out that time. You just need to try to stay positive through this and hope he gets out sooner rather than later, do you have any friends that you can spend some time with, maybe they can try to cheer you up a bit? Like he said don’t lose faith 🙂
yes i am pikachu, he started calling me that because of my obsession over the original chubby pikachu. last time he was there he was there for months. i know hes trying his best but he has so many things he has bottled up… i dont really have many friends, all of them are in the middle of bubblefuck, usa. i am just afraid i wont be able to take care of our little Ezra. he needs both parent. we both came from broken homes and we dont want that for him…
Well its really on your boyfriend at this point, whatever it is he is going through he has a family waiting for him so he needs to do whatever it takes to pull it together and get back to you. The good part is that the baby isn’t even born yet so he has a good bit of time before it becomes anything that Ezra would even remember. Not that he should take his time about it or anything. What about family looks like from your profile you are only 17 will your parents help you at all with this?
i left home quite a while ago. even thought the life isnt glamorous it is way better than where i was. really it was just him and i living paycheck to paycheck, surviving on chef boyardee and ramen. it was a simple, happy life.