I need to ask

Hi again, Im Elico. I posted once here (I dont have anything is the title of it)…

I-im just tired you know? I just need to end it all, Im happier that way actually… Life sucks for me. Im beign selfish but for once I want to be selfish… Ive made decisions to make others happy but to make me… alone.

People will never get my pain, it might be superficial, manageable and shallow to some but for me it simply isnt… and I just do not care with other people anymore…

I need to simply end you know? And I do not want to resort to violent means with blood splatters and all since well I would make a mess. I know Im not supposed to ask about things like this in here but I dotn have anywhere else to go.

If only I can get hold of those sleeping pills (well its impossible since I cant get a prescription)… All I have are these cetrizine stuff, some anti obesity things, a pile of charcoal… and well in the kitchen there’s a knife…

Anyways, please help me… decide, and not ending my life isnt an option really… im actually determined now