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I feel this…..:)

I mean not having him, causing the main pain?

You have to tell yourself then that you’ll get your moments to be together, and while you not you have to focus on other things. you’ll letting this eat you alive, trust me I know. for over a year I only could talk to this girl online, dreaming of what she would be like in person, it was something to imagine but not to have. I spent many nights wishing, talking to myself, promise I would marry her and more if I could be with her and if she could be happy with me.

Its okay for this to be on your mind alot, but if you let it consume all day each day, you be losing more of yourself than you would know. a month after I met this girl.. think I told you? I wrote over 10 pages story poem of how we met so she would never forget it and she ate it up, but during process I was making myself more obsess, and my friend lou at the time told me to stop take a break for 2 days then go back to it.

the ideal behind what that break away meant is important. you must draw your attention to something, at least one more thing to be satisfying to keep your mind on him 24/7.

here’s a question, other than being on SP or thinking or taking to him, is there anything else that grabs your attention, any hobby

when I say do something else, I’m not saying get over him, I’m saying make him a little less important during the days you unable to contact him. when you put too much hope into something you put to much pressure, you begin to cause damage to something without knowing it. that “wanting and wanting” is going to cause unseen damage. I feel that wanting, and because of that wanting I at time push her to feel when she’s not design to feel causing her to want to be more alone.

you have to find ways to control yourself. When you give off your story to another friend of family member you will come off right, like I would telling about my ex-love but much of the pain that was there is self put by me, I’m responsible as much as she is.