Friday. My 1st day back at school after being in the hospital all week for a failed suicide attempt. This really “popular” girl walked up to me in the lunch line. The line extends out into the middle of the cafeteria. I was at the back of this huge line in the middle of the packed cafeteria. She walked right up to me and asked me to homecoming. She is one of those girls that knows that she’s hot. You know? So obviously I wanted to respond like any hormone crazed 16 year old guy.
The initial reaction in my head:Â ME!? Hell yea!!!
I just smiled, trying to think of what to say.
But after thinking rationally for about one second I noticed the suppressed laughter all around me. Unbelievable.
When I didn’t reply she said, “You mean you won’t!? I think I’m going to go kill myself now!” And she ran back to her table. The group of people that gave disapproving shakes of their heads were lost in the mass of people cracking up. That is, if there were any. I like to think that there were, but I can’t keep fooling myself.
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what a *****
Couldn’t have said it better myself.
You don’t need to fool yourself; there will always be people who do things like this, but there will also always be people who disaprove. When i was in highschool these sorts of things happened all the time, and there were often people who stood up for the ones being made fun of.
Don’t let it get you down, children, need to assert there dominance like this, it’s the very reason she is one of the “popular” ones.
Its just hard to believe that there are people who disapprove out there when none of them speak up. Things like this make me a better person though, because they make me realize that I need to speak up for other people. That alone gives me a reason to live.
And yea, it doesn’t make me angry or anything. Just… makes me lose hope for people in general really. But also makes me really want to help the problem.
Who needs pessimism?
Awesome attitude 🙂 and somtimes it’s hard for people to stand up. They don’t want to be labled “uncool” either.
It’s strange looking back at highschool, if i could do it all again there wouldn’t be an instant that i wouldn’t stand up for someone being picked on.(sadly i was often the bully, it really breaks my heart hearing things like this and knowing i may of hurt people) Just remember though, don’t pick fights just try to diffuse the situation.
The fact that you were a “bully” gives me hope actually. Hope that everyone else can change too, like you did.
I don’t know you so I can’t really comment properly; this never happened to me but heaps of girls did this to other guys in my school; its just them testing the waters and being silly/ playful.
No i wish it was, but it was really to make fun of me. A buncha people from school came and saw me in the hospital. Word got out that i tried to kill myself again. This was her and her friends making fun of that. An unfortunate fact…
That’s fucked. I’m sorry for you.
Kids are kids. ‘popular girls’ play out the stereotype tht is expected of them, and so do you… I mean, you actually wanted to go out with her even though she sounds like a *****! In this way you can’t really blame anyone at school for being a sheep when that’s all that is expected of them.
Just hold on a little longer. School is fucked- once its over all the cool people get wise to the fact that it doesn’t mean anything and usually girls like ‘popular girl’ never amount to much beyond getting knocked up and working in a supermarket
Only you can decided whats best for you everything else is just noise in the wind.