just done... i am ready to die now!

Scar504 9/16/2012 - 10:07 pm

You probably do come out stronger each time something like this happens even if you don’t realize it. You’re at the bottom, that means you can’t give up. There’s no more hole to jump into. You don’t have any choice but to go up. What’s wrong?

falling_soup 9/16/2012 - 10:26 pm

i feel like i no longer want to live i am just done thinking that i can always make it and i can fake that smile one more time.. i just am not happy anymore 🙁 i just don’t want to keep going that if i were to die no one would care </3

Scar504 9/16/2012 - 10:38 pm

If you keep going you can find people who would care. I’m sure there’re people who care about you now(besides us on SP) but even if there aren’t okay, you got dealt a bad hand, find people who care. Then you don’t have to fake a smile. If you tell yourself that you can’t then you won’t.

falling_soup 9/16/2012 - 11:13 pm

a little part of me wants to keep going on but there is huge part of me that doesn’t my arms were the scars of my cuts are have been tingling and itching like crazy so i will cut them again my body is starting to crave it and my body is shutting down emotionally and physically i really just want to give up a lot now a days i feel like i am not who i used to be i have changed in so many ways that even I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE i feel like i just do not fit in anymore everyone at school is a bunch of stuck up judging PRICKS who think they are better then everyone and look at people who are LBGT as weird and people who are depressed even dumber and pathetic!! i just figured out i am bisexual a few weeks ago so what?! but how can i tell anyone when everyone does is judge how can i ask for help when everyone does is judge

falling_soup 9/16/2012 - 11:14 pm

thanks for caring about me Scar504 i really needed that <3

Scar504 9/16/2012 - 11:22 pm

A little part of you doesn’t want to keep going that’s a BIG part that’s being drowned out by all the stress. Why do you want to fit in with people who are cruel and judgmental anyways. I’m bi to; there’s nothing wrong with it, nor is there with being depressed. Be careful who you tell about this though, it wouldn’t help you to have to deal with rumours on top of everything else.

I’m happy to care, thanks for letting me.

falling_soup 9/16/2012 - 11:38 pm

thats true i guess just feel like a social outcast sometimes… i have only told 3 people so far and i really trust the people i told i can not stand the rumors i have had so many be spread about me so i am keeping it on the down low for sure but i am not ashamed i just can not have the entire school refer to me as the bisexual girl…. i just want to be saved from all the lies and the sadness i want to feel happy again and i am trying to work on that the best i can it just gets rough sometimes….. if you ever want to start emailing each other heres my email: natandjimzy@gmail.com you are supper sweet and i am glad to feel like i am normal here that i am not alone <3

just done… i am ready to die now!

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