I just left class saying I had to go to the bathroom. I’m in there now. I had to leave because just looking at everything around me- pipes, rough walls, windows- I can’t shake the feeling of pounding my head, scraping my skin, or falling through the glass with by blood punctured skin. Right now I’m punching myself. I have scrapes all over my arm. For some reason I want people to see, so they know that there is something deeper in me beyond the shallowness of high school. I just feel like such an outsider. All my issues would just be so easy to silent. I would make a statement. instead of just sitting in class with other preoccupations on my mind, I can just be a normal person. But I’m not, and I have a need for pain. I used to fear it, consider life precious, but the worse my life gets, the more joy I get with dancing around with pain. I can’t explain it well. I can’t go on the rest of the year, the rest of my life like this
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Your still in high school, things will change rapidly when your done with it, for now just try and bear it and look towards the future.
And hey… who you are today can be changed tomorrow, what you are now is just a mold that isn’t finished, you can change if you really want too.
What Velakan said… High school is hard enough as it is without more pressure to get through the other parts of your life. It is for most people, unfortunately. And so, like most of us, you will make it through the school part. But the part that is hurting you the most? Thats where the people who care about you come in. Let them.