Take back every word I said, I never said to you….

That fucking hurt. Ouch.

‘Going to throw a party next Thursday, Hopefully got something to celebrate’ I hope you realize how fucking sick that is. Twat.

So anyways, Yeah. Next Thursday. Let’s do it Nat. Things aren’t going to get better, are they? Just going to get worse. So come with me.. We can go and we can go to that place.

What is wrong with me? why has the past two days been terrible.

I had a breakdown at school today. I genuinely believed that the school were going to do something to us, I couldn’t stand being in a classroom full of guys. I felt so alone.. And worried. I felt like every student was a guinea pig trapped in a big cage for some sick experiment. And I didn’t know how to help them.. 🙁 I ignored some of my closest friends as I didn’t want them to see me break down.

I have no way of dealing with this anymore.. I just want my dad.. He’s my Father. He’s meant to be looking after me.. But no, My mum has slightly given up. Maybe she thinks i’m old enough? Or maybe I just don’t let her.

I’m in so much fucking pain. Physically and mentally. Yummy.

Considered trying Inhalants/Aerosols today…. I’m not going to, obviously..