why – a word that we use on a daily basis , a word that we use to ask people – why did you do that , yet it has so much more meaning if you are me – WHY ?!?!?! thats what they ask me , when i woke up after passing out on the floor of my church from pills , why would you do this why ? why? when my counsler asks why?  when people find out that i wanna die Why?  My mother asks me Why? why? ….. The  world asks me why? why do you wanna die – The awnser is simple – i wanna die because you didn’t care  to see , you were shocked when you found me lying on my floor , and you asked me why…. One little word can do so much damage that word is why …..
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I feel I can relate you to in a sense of ignorance by others. The question “Why” is when someone does not understand, when someone questions the reasons behind the actions, when true ignorance is bliss to avoid difficult or awkward situations. I feel that venting to those that deserve to ask you “why” is the only release. When people do not understand they will question it. People who would understand you cannot plead ignorance and should be able to help you in dire times of need. Before you push your body pasts its limits I’d ask you to vent, to talk, to scream, to cry to someone who is willing to listen to your thoughts and help you. Life is cruel and abusive at time, but it is also amazingly beautiful. You are you, and you are beautiful and special. And even though you may not know it, you are loved, and if by not by whom you expect, know this, you are loved by those that need you in their lives, even if you do not know who they are. Do not let yourself the clouded by thoughts of doubt and despair. You are you, and you are worth Life.
I actually love the word ‘why’ because it’s the only way you can learn something new. Try to understand- they don’t understand depression but they are trying to. They are ignorant but at least they are making the effort. So you can make a little effort back and try to explain.
You say they didn’t care to see. But you can’t expect them to see something outside o their own experience. It’s like if you dont understand Spanish, how can you be expected to follow a Spanish conversation?
People care enough to ask. Help them understand.