I really have no respect for my state any longer! Months have gone by and I am still here feeling sorry for myself and talking suicide without doing it. It’s pathetic! I either kill myself FOR REAL or go ahead with this horrible life and make whatever out of it without complains. Staying here paralyzed, depressed and being a burden to others shouldn’t be a option.
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Please stay. I’m feeling the same. But, you’re right it shouldn’t be an option to be here that way. I hated when people say this to me but I gotta tell you, give it time. Things should get better in time ..
Try seeing it in a different light…I feel like each day I put off suicide that I have achieved some sort of goal and I’m proud of myself. At the same time I am miserable. So miserable, and really telling myself to either piss or get off the pot! There are reasons I haven’t left yet and it’s because like you I really don’t want to go and it is a battle every day.
Sometimes doing nothing is an action in itself. Holding on is an action. Something to be proud of.
Thank you forlom.
I never thought of it that way one_day. It a more dignifying view of the loser state I am in. Thanks for your input.
Looser state??!! Please. You’re a fighter. Every single person here can attest to how hard it is to hang on. Your doing good.