Nearly always a few months ago. I feel it every now and then now. What’s a little messed up is that I mask that with a smile that people always compliment. ‘Wow, you have a beautiful smile!’ Everybody around here thinks I’m a 100% happy always chipper person. That’s mostly because I’ve slowly been converting physical, emotional, and mental pain into something I can ‘enjoy’. So far I don’t know if that would be a sexual type of enjoyment or just a pleasant feeling, but it’s enough to make me smile and laugh whenever I’m hit hard by something.
smiles..and try to enjoy things,hmm..? im not good at faking things 🙁 When those feelins came, i became completely numb. tHank you,anyway 4sharing @kyuketsuki
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Yes… all the time.
🙁 What u usually do to ease those feelings?
Nearly always a few months ago. I feel it every now and then now. What’s a little messed up is that I mask that with a smile that people always compliment. ‘Wow, you have a beautiful smile!’ Everybody around here thinks I’m a 100% happy always chipper person. That’s mostly because I’ve slowly been converting physical, emotional, and mental pain into something I can ‘enjoy’. So far I don’t know if that would be a sexual type of enjoyment or just a pleasant feeling, but it’s enough to make me smile and laugh whenever I’m hit hard by something.
smiles..and try to enjoy things,hmm..? im not good at faking things 🙁 When those feelins came, i became completely numb. tHank you,anyway 4sharing @kyuketsuki