I can’t say like i’m many of you. I’ve been pretty fortunate as far as life goes. But i dunno. No matter how well off you are there will always be a problem that somehow manages to get you. It’s pathetic
I don’t know why i carry on really. I used to like doing a lot of things and i had a lot of interests all over the place but i dunno what’s the damn point. It’s all useless idle bullshit. i’m bad at what i’m good at doing and i’m stupid to boot. I’m useless to society and i should just go kill myself except i’m a ***** too. pathetic and passionless in one stupid package. i’m a joke. Only thing stopping me is my family and my cowardice really but can’t say i want to be here.
i’d never let any of my friends know about any of this but hey we all do that acting thing don’t we. Life sucks and then you die
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dont feel bad for how you feel. ive said this before and i mean it… doesnt matter how privileged you are or how good others think you have it. we all have a degree of sensitivity and we need to respect that. sadness knows no social class. it haunts the rich the poor the ugly the beautiful. thats just how it is.
I see this so often here, people saying that they’re useless awful people and then they go to someone else’s post and say something kind and comforting. Sometimes people lose interest in life Sonic; it happens. The trick is getting the fire burning again.
Haha that is true. even when circumstances get better the problems never go away. kind of makes you wonder why anyone bothers. It does make you feel a lot more pathetic though. I’ve never been raped or bullied and my family isn’t dysfunctional. But you know when you’re just plain worthless and you know it nothing around you can make you feel better.
@scar: haha that’s true kinda weird xD. My fire’s been out for a long time. I’ve forgotten how it felt when it was burning really. It was nice to type about it though. 🙂
try not to let experience (or lack of) shape who you are. i have been molested as a child. i’ve been stabbed. alot of stuff. doesnt mean you should feel worse cause you havnt been. if think its ok that we both feel the same even if some of these bad things didnt happen. dont feel guilty. you feel how you feel there is no competition on who is allowed to want to die or feel sad.
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Sometimes i do wonder if people like me and you feel the same nuance of sadness… it’s a meaningless question really but i guess you’re right. The irony is i feel pathetic for feeling pathetic about my feelings xD. I’m really sorry to hear about what happened to you though, it’s great you’re still talking positive despite everything. You sound like a really strong person it’s great 🙂
pss i seem strong on the outside. but on the inside im still the little boy who would hide under the bed when gunshots went off. dont feel pathetic for feeling pathetic. take that energy and turn it to questions. and then answer these questions. getting stuck in a catch 22 is the worst. im positive but so much negative happens around me. dont be sorry for me. be sorry for wrong you’ve done not the wrong done to other people, especially if you didnt cause it. but thanks sonic i appreciate the gesture. the word “great” has great meaning to me.
Questions huh? That’s a tough one… Like why do i feel pathetic? Because i am, factually. Can’t do anything right. When i said i was useless to society i really did mean it. but dang you have it way harder than me, i’ve never heard a gunshot in my life. But hey even if you were reeeally strong only a fool wouldn’t hide under the bed when the guns are sounding. 😀
haha this past weekend there was 20 something shots. several during the day. thats just how it is here. ive been shot at. 2 of my good friends have died from gunshot wounds to the head. i own several firearms as well. i wrote in a post last night about how several gunshots went off and i sat there laughing cause the words exchanged before (read my posts if im confusing you) but i didnt hide under the bed thats just life here in the wild wild west. the questions. lemme break it down for you. start like how you say “im useless to society” say “why am i useless to society” then say “how can i be useful to society” its like a huge math equation but if you break it down to that many pieces it gets easier to solve (kinda like how in division you use multiplication adding and subtracting and breaking it down makes it easier to answer)
Damn dude it’s like we’re from two different worlds. I’ve never seen anybody get murdered, never got into a real fight. Don’t know how you deal with it man but it’s good you did. i just read that post and it makes me feel bad for them rather than amused, why would they shoot people over biscuits??
I think i get you. The ending to those questions is a clusterfuck right now, but hey it looks like a way out. 🙂 i’ll see if it works out i guess.
yeah, the 1st person to die in my life i was about 7. my friend got shot when he was riding his bike outside. i didnt really get it then. but people just kept dying and i get i got used to it. one of my friends got stabbed with a screwdriver and dyed in my arms. i had my lung punctured from 3 stab wounds while i was doing a bid. haha no it wasnt over biscuits. lemme rephrase the conversation
ey whats in the bag
the muthafuckin “gun”
oh yeah i like kfc biscuits (saying it in a mocking way)
no the muthafucking gun.
slang is so crazy here that anything can mean anything. theres a word for pretty much any action or object you can think of. birching means scrapping a pipe for whatever substance youre desperate for, people call meth cheese. its just crazy
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