accepting something we refuse to believe essentially leads to the end of our hopes. dreams, hopes, desires, wishes… these are all things we cling to with our whole hearts and souls. for me, it is all that has kept me the least bit sane over the last year. it’s one thing to lose these within yourself, but it’s a completely different heartache when we had shared our dreams, hopes, desires and wishes with another person, only to have then reject and abandon us.

it is my feeling that once something is shared it cannot be owned solely by a single person anymore. i am not referring to the physical and the tangible mind you, but rather the emotional and the spiritual. and the obvious example we both know all to well, is love. once love is given it remains shared always.

intellectually, i know that “moving on” and “getting over her” is what i should be doing in order to fall in step with the rest of the world, who seem to accept love, family, and friendship as disposable and replaceable. emotionally, i refuse to allow myself to become so jaded and callous. if i do what i feel is right, no one can ever claim i was untrue to my own heart.

in some peoples eyes (most it would seem) i live in a world that doesn’t exist. a world of my own creation. if that is true, then my choice to leave this world will be my best and only option. i don’t wish to leave this world though… i desired to share it with my one and only true love, always and forever. but now that desire seems to only be a dream, locked still within my heart.

if you have difficulty accepting something, do not assume it’s because you are wrong and they are right. never be fearful of believing in what you feel is right, no matter how much others try to convince you otherwise.