Well. Venturing here on SP for a few months has really been the saving grace for me. I came here on the lowest of lows, where I was on the verge of suicide, almost about to do it coming across the long helium hood post that midnight and reading the whole thing I decided to take a chance on this website posting my story I had never shared with anyone else but 1 person but I don’t know. I try to tell myself no but sometimes I wonder if she’s the reason I’m here or not, but that’s a different story. After getting numerous responses, I felt it was my obligation to try and help other people on this website, even if it was very little. I had tried to commit suicide multiple times by taking pills, helium hood, dehydration, cutting and such but none ever worked. As my time on here grew, I began to lose my suicidal intentions and just focus on life as best I could with the circumstances present. Trying to grind out this final year of high school is well a grind but I’m hanging in there and if I do make it to college, I’ve finally decided that I want to be a psychologist. I was leaning towards business but after reading numerous stories of how psychologists say they can fix you or help you when they do nothing just inspires me to be one because I know I can help people and I can relate to them and understand how they feel and why they feel it. I still have my suicidal thoughts as of right now but I’ve kept them more to myself lately and well, maybe one day I can’t take it and I snap and it happens, but if it does, well I’ll be happy but until then I guess I’ll just grind it out.