A little story on how I found this website and a little venting

This website has been so beneficial for me these past several months. About 6 months ago i was on Google looking for things such as “why should i not kill myself? There is no one that is going through what i’m going through.” Finally, I stumbled onto this website. After reading several articles, I figured out that I am not alone with the pain and loneliness. Last year at school was so hard for me. My best friend for a long time asked a girl out and she said yes. He barely knew her, only for that year. I was thinking that when i did turn 16, he would ask me out. Well that isn’t going to happen. It hurts so much to see my crush with a girl that he barley knows. What is worse is he rides my bus so that means he can talk about his girlfriend all the time to me. He does not know how bad that hurts me. Sorry about my randomness, I had to let it out. I will try to be more organized the next time I post.