Annabeth Reid

I call myself Annabeth Reid, that’s the life I wish I lived. I have amazing friends and a amazing family, so much to look forward to in life and the bullying has almost stopped. But it never stops does it? The past always catches up with the present… When I was younger I was bullied a lot a name I heard almost everyday was SLUT, my own friends called me that behind my back. I’m also very skinny, not because I try it’s just the way I am, yet I’m called anorexic. People make jokes saying I throw up after I eat, but I don’t. I’ve thought about self-harm, just didn’t have the guts to go through with it… My mom wants me to be perfect, why my sister gets to take classes that she finds easy, she tells me I have to do more. Take more classes, do more chores, help out more in the community… I’m never good enough for her. Sometimes I think why do I deserve to live when other people are begging to die? What makes me special? Nothing…absolutely nothing…I should be happy with my life, yet I cry almost everyday, I want to cut, I want someone to understand but know nobody will. I’m afraid to come out as a bisexual, because of the bullying. My last boyfriend broke up with me because I trusted him with that. People have it worse than I do, I think that’s the main reason I haven’t hurt myself yet. I just want to be somebody else… Does anyone understand? Or am I still alone? I call myself Annabeth Reid because thats the girl I want to be.