I’ve been on this site before and took a pretty long break. A lot of stuff has happened, but I’ve decided to probably end my life sometime today. I’ve been suffering from severe depression since I was twelve and have had suicidal thoughts every day since then. I’ve tried to live for others but I don’t have a will to live anymore. I tried to die multiple other times as a child and carried the pain around me for a long time, no treatments have worked and it hurts to wake up everyday so I’m going to finally liberate myself through death. If you want more of a background on me read my previous posts. Anyways, the first time I tried to kill myself I was thirteen and tried hanging myself. It was pretty painful until m vision began to go blurry and my mind began to go blank, but the rope eventually broke. I didn’t want to hang myself again, but I’m in my college dorm room and I’m desperate for a release. Wish me luck!
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Life is such a struggle. You’ve been struggling as long as many of us, longer than a lot of us. I wish you to be happy. I wish for you to to be happy and alive. I wish for you to be happy, alive and thriving. That is my sincerest wish for you.
It’s always hard from me to read this kind of posts cause on one hand I instinctively want to prevent the event from happening but I rationally understand the desire and resolve to leave this never ending struggle. I wish you peace whatever you decide to do. If you want to reply, I’d love to keep on talking to you. I know what a lonely day this one might prove to be.
I know how you feel. But I also know that if you killed yourself, it would hurt so many people. Me and everyone else on SP would be devastated! Even though it doesn’t seem like it right now, you’re here on the earth for a reason, you are so valuable, and one day you’ll be able to see this, and once you’ve recovered, you’ll be able to heal so many people going through hard times because of the shit you’ve gone through. You’re in pain for a reason- to help people in the future. We love you! Please email me if you want to talk lovethebeautifuljourney@hotmail.com. I would love to talk! 🙂
I feel the same. I’ve held so much pain for so long, it seems hopeless. I hope you find peace. I know how desperate you are for it, because I am too.