I just cut myself for the very first time, I had been thinking of doing this for a while but never did. Tonight it all was too much and I did it and it was AMAZING, the feeling of the reason on my skin and the slight burning sensation as it broke it apart. The little blood that came out was like the reward for a good job and I can’t wait to do so again.
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It can also control and ruin your life. It can be like a drug, for me it was. I couldnt wait till i could drag the scalpel across my skin and release all the crazy shit in my head. Just dont let a little piece of metal rule your world
I’ll try… I just need an outlet for the moment.
An outlet aye?
Might I suggest… a hobby.
or donating that time to charity
I believe that any time spent hurting yourself is better suited to helping others c:
> Inb4 im not a bible fag.
The feeling of achievement you get from that first cut is exactly the same as the one ou get recieving your first paycheck or helping people work through tough situations.
I just went through a similiar experience right now as well. I used tweezers though cause I’m too much of a punk for a razor. I’m gonna post about it in a little, and it sounds like we had a similar feeling. Like headsick said it became a drug, I hope that we don’t get addicted to it though or feel like thats the only way to help.
I started with tweezers. It wasn’t enough tonight… Hope you don’t get to my level, I have the urge right now. The little pain I felt is gone now and I kinda need something to distract me.
I had a job and my fist paycheck was nothing compared to this. I volunteered for a year and even tho it was nice to help I was still depressed. Don’t judge me, if you don’t agree or dislike what I said, just don’t read or comment on my post.
:/ How long have you been doing this? and I know your last comment was for what youarenolongeralone said, but I want to let you know I agree. I do enjoy helping people as much as I can, and I do end up feeling good but it’s not like that will stop my depression.
just be smart about it…. keep it in hidden places and do not be so stupid as to tell people who will not keep their mouths shut.
just don’t let it get the better of you.
trust me, it can.
Yeah same here, I like helping others but its not because it gets rid of my sadness. Actually if I did so for that reason I think it would be selfish. I’m with you on this one.
I will, and I don’t plan on telling anyone. Well I wrote it on here because I can be anonymous here.
I’ll try my best. Thanks
People tend to freak out over cutting behaviors. “OMG! You have to stop that TODAY! Call 911! GO to your nearest ER! Call a friend! Get help NOW!” This kind of urgent advice cracks me up. In actuality, it’s one of the safest “vices” of someone in this measure of emotional and psychic turmoil.
I’ve been a cutter all my life, well since I was 15. I’m now 39 and still cut/burn from time to time. I’m living proof it’s really very hard to die from slitting open your wrist along one of the veins. I’d even taken aspirin to thin my blood and was in a hot bath when I did it. I bled a whole lot- the water turned brown- but I never even got light headed by the time it stopped.
Your biggest hazard is infection. I’ve always been an advocate of good wound care. The last thing you want is for one to get infected and then have to fess up to a doctor, who will then possibly have you sent to a psych ward. Trust me! Keep the cuts protected with a bandage of some sort, which you should change twice daily. (You’ll have to get clever figuring out how to hide the bandage. Consider this issue before you cut. Choose your spot wisely.) Treat the cut with Neosporin or Bactine everyday. If you think it needs a stitch or two, you can pull it closed with a butterfly bandage, but you’ll have to keep on it for a good 10 days to make sure it seals up well. Otherwise you get one helluva nasty looking scar. (I speak from experience.)
You’re just as likely to die from cutting as from getting a flu shot or donating blood. People get piercings. They brand. Get tattoos. Pathogens are everywhere. Humans are pretty resilliant to them. Just take good care of your cuts.
sick_of_it the point isn’t just that it’s dangerous, but that it’s not a reasonable solution. It’s like sticking a wad of gum on an engine with a hole in it. Instead of becomming addicted to cutting it would be better to address the problems causing the temptation.
it IS reasonable to feel relief. It IS reasonable to deal with your problems in a way that you CAN control (emotionally, mentally and physically). And i hate the term self harm. It is NOT harm – not anymore than a tatoo. In fact it does not hurt at all – it feels GREAT.
Agreed, most definitely. It’s a downright stupid solution. No doubt about it. But for someone who has the urge to hurt herself (which I don’t condone but 100% understand), it’s certainly not one of the worst of the worst ideas. Not to say I’m right. I just speak from my own experience. After a lifetime of cutting (at times, fairly serious), worse self harm choices I’ve made: trying to break an arm or leg via throwing myself down stairs, a decade of eating disorders (starving myself and then binge/purge cycle), chronic binge drinking (this is probably the worst of them all), street drugs, overdosing on various medications, entering abusive relationships, puttng myself in places that are downright unsafe. Next to these things, sitting on my bed with a razor has always struck me as the best possible avenue. Sure, one might say, “Oh, just paint a picture… you’re so artistic.” or “Just go back to school, give yourself something useful to do with your energy.” blah blah blah. That’s like telling an alcoholic to just make the choice to drink a can of soda instead of a can of beer. Uh huh. If only it was that easy.
I feel your point, though. Well said. 😉
^^ @ Scar
TY.
and as for the art…. I like to use a razor and make designs. I think of it as art (as good as this totally unartistic person can do).
@ freak,
I see it as “self harm” for myself. But that’s just me. If I thought of it as something, perhaps, nice to do for myself, I’d probably choose a giant ice cream sundae or professional massage over cutting. *shrug*
agree to disagree. but i am not god – my opinion does not rule. best wishes all.
@ Freak, Everyone’s opinion matters just as much as any other’s. 🙂
Thanks for the advice. Also for not judging. 🙂
I totally agree with you