Tired of everything, already on anti-depresants but I’m not depressed I’m tired of it all, just plain tired of living.
I swear if I hear one more person say “God has a plan for you” I will scream!!! I was raised in church and these are the plans he’s had for me I’m screwed. No one on earth listens and I’m more than absolutely sure He doesn’t care either so if that’s where you are coming from, don’t bother.
A woman said to me the other day that I just need to make a choice and stick to it (she meant chosing God) well I’m making my choice I don’t want to live anymore!!!
Once I guarantee the safety and security of my child I’m done and out of here. People say but you’ll burn in hell for eternity…what do you think I’m living in and been living in my entire life. I’ll miss my kid but lets be serious the child will be better off; I can’t physically do much with my kid and so I just try to be the best mom I can but I know I can find someone that will do better and then it can just end.
I’m just so damn tired.
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cheer up. at least you have someone worth living for. if it makes you feel better, try to raise your kid so he/she won’t have to experience this. a purpose, even a small one, can help put direction in your life.
dont leave your kid… you dont wanna him to experience hell without his parent
One of my parents is dead, and look where that got me, on this site wanting to kill myself. I’m not saying stay just for your kid but for yourself and future life aswell, I know that’s hard to look for, but you have something worth living for