Not to say I wasn’t clean for a year and that’s not something I am proud of …
But I have NO IDEA what came over me…
I loved the metal. I missed it so much, I didn’t even cry. I’m not suicidal… I just want to cut.
But I’m  scared that I’ll get worse again… I don’t want to get worse again… I don’t want to be in my head again.
I don’t want to be that girl again.
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Funny thing is…. sometimes i think i’ve changed eneugh and all of a sudden i realize im still the same loser i was before. Still nerveus when i must talk to girls and all that sh_t..And then i must reassure myself that dont worry, youve got nothing to lose.. either way theyll think youre a loser so why worry about it? I will die anyway..