sleep

i know exactly how you feel, i used to get home from school, eat, and then go to sleep, just sleep for hours and hours, when your asleep you cant feel anything only peaceful rest and comfort in warm bedsheets, i used to cry myself to sleep almost everyday, and no one would know,(not like i even wanted anyone to know) i just locked my door went into bed and tried to sleep, and damn did it feel good,
but things changed, i became numb to emotions i no longer slept as much and i just didnt really feel much pain, i knew i was going to kill myself, but at least the last year of my life i wouldnt have to be in pain everyday,
then i found this website, my numbness disappeared, and slowly i recovered, with the help of someone, listening to my pain and agony, it really helps to have someone talk to you especially when they know what your going through, if you need to talk to anyone im here, all you have to do is spill everything out.

i planned mine perfectly, and then i decided not to, why? because i found a reason to live, before i had nothing to live for, and now i have someone to live for,
if you did have something to live for what would it be?

aww, im no one to tell you what to do, but your daughter needs you, she needs you a lot, please dont deprive her of having a mother, its obvious she loves you very much, and for your addiction, i know its hard to end it, i’ve dealt with a bit of alcoholism but i have stopped, i have been sober for over idunno anymore, but its been a long time, i dont even touch that stuff anymore, i fought and i won, and im sure you can too, good luck

look you seem like a very loving mother, you might have let drugs and depression consume you, but you are a very loving mother, live for your daughter, it will make you happy to see her grow up healthy and happily with a great mom, she is your reason to live, she is your happiness she is your joy, dont lose her, dont

i dont know why they took your children away from you, and it must be devastating, i know life must have felt good with all those drugs, but life can be better and it will be better with your children, you are a very caring mother, and im sure that you have enough determination to be a good mom and recover for your children. So you have to fight, you cant give up, not on your children and not on yourself, you have a lot to live for and a lot to care for, i hope you can recover for your children and yourself

Your life will be a lot better once you can sober up completely and maintain your kids, you dont need spice to keep you happy, having the joy of your wonderful children will make you happy, having the feeling of accomplishment that you raised your beautiful and great children, watching them grow up and flourish into adults, spice is ruining you and you have to stop doing it, its going to feel like hell while your sobering up, but it will be worth it because your life will get a lot better with your children, you have to make sacrifices for yourself and for your kids, your going to have to live through the pain of rehabilitation, but in the end you will be glad with your decisions