The playlists abounded, the only things left besides the journals upon journals, notepads chock-full
dear no one,
i’ve been feeling down lately. actually, scratch that. i’ve been feeling down since i was 14 or so; i just never acknowledged or realized it. it’s a mixture of deep sadness and gut-wrenching anxiety every fucking day. i can’t even cry anymore.
you see, when i was young, i wanted to be an artist. i used to draw a lot, and even receive praises and compliments from others who look at my craft (thanks, pa. i hope you’re resting in heaven). i believed i can draw. when i went to college to become a creative artist as an advertising student, turns out, i only know […]
Our efforts are those of men prone to disaster;
our efforts are like those of the Trojans.
We just begin to get somewhere,
gain a little confidence,
grow almost bold and hopeful,
when something always comes up to stop us:
Achilles leaps out of the trench in front of us
and terrifies us with his violent shouting.
Our efforts are like those of the Trojans.
We think we’ll change our luck
by being resolute and daring,
so we move outside ready to fight.
But when the great crisis comes,
our boldness and resolution vanish;
our spirit falters, paralyzed,
and we scurry around the walls
trying to save ourselves by running away.
Yet we’re sure to fail. Up there,
high on the walls, the […]
I feel a lot better now… or at least a bit…
I think it’s all because of sleeping… or dreaming… and having only two days of work left…
… I… I don’t know how to solve my problems or habe healthy outlets, no one really teaches me how to do anything…
I think letting out steam and crying a bit helped… or made it worse, idk…
No, no, can’t focus on that right now…
I… kind of wish I cluld sleep forever and forget the world even exists…
I want to dream forever…
I want to… live in imagination…
Imaginary characters sometimes seem a lot nicer and more understanding than real people… I […]
Yume Nikki (Dream Diary)
Yume Nikki Wiki
A really popular freeware rpg maker horror game, Yume Nikki is a story about a socially reclusive girl who never leaves her home and instead sleeps to live in a lucid world of dreams and nightmares, from the serene to the disturbing…
The game has no plot or dialogue to speak of, but instead a big open world with a lot of creative interactivity with these effects that you collect.
Many people have tried to come up with their own explanations on […]
Sometimes I think there’s never been
A highway so wide and mean
Leading to a room so cold and bare
Faded pictures on the wall
Stories of a past untold
Sunny beaches turn to ruthless tide
There’s a new motel in town
It’s called the end of broken dreams
There’s a new place in town
It’s called the end of broken dreams
Out of the blue my name is fear
And I’ll haunt you if I care
Out of this world my game is clear
And I’ll catch you if I dare
But there is no time for me to stay
Maybe it’s time to ride the ray
Maybe tomorrow never comes
Crawling lizards in the sun
Do we part like fallen leaves
Dreams are so cruel sometimes, especially when you have a really good dream and you wake up from it. Me, for example, I am struggling with my sexuality. I’m a closeted bi-sexual and I often fantasize about being with a girl. One who I would not be afraid to be with, one that I would gladly spend the rest of my life figuring out ways to make them smile. But then, I wake up. I’m back to the hell of reality. I live in a verbally (previously physically abusive home). I do not have a driver’s license because I have grown up in a home […]
In my dreams, every night, I am back at school (it’s been nearly 10 years.) There, all my defences crumble, and I am confronted with my deepest fears. My peers can finally treat me with the contempt I deserve. No need to hide how pathetic, repulsive, or worthless I am. None of the kindness or tact that you find in real life. Everyone is completely callous, if not actively malevolent. I am an other, an outsider, to be sneered at, laughed at, and rejected. Everyone is against me, and I am powerless to escape or change the situation. Even the teachers despise me – I am […]
No nightmare, I wasn’t scared at all. Didn’t wake up with fear or a gasp. Instead very relaxed and comforted.
I just dreamed through taking a large bottle of blue unlabeled pills and became very sleepy. My whole Body grew tingly then numb.
After that I woke up within another dream. Of a large empty field, a City in the distance. The sun was shining and the grass was warm and smelled like it was recently mowed. A familiar voice shouted my name before tackling me into a hug. It was my best friend from Britain I have a crush on. Said glad I was finally […]
I had a dream about a friend of mine who comitted suicide in july of last year. We where going on a road trip to meet someone. I miss you louie
I have found that a way to help you figure out things is to analyze your dreams. I know some of them are seemingly meaningless, but it seems to help me. Also sharing them with others help as well. Here are a few of my own:
*warning, this first one is a bit gross*
I mashed a bump and instead of puss coming out, I pulled a neuron out of my skin.
My local college was located in a swamp. A former friend and I wore old time dresses (Gothic era) with petticoats. I found a book of nautical poetry and began to read it. The buildings were […]
There is something liberating about accepting being a nobody.
I have been bullied, belittled, and abused as a child in both my school and in my family. For the longest of times, I have done my best to improve my reputation and status in society in response to these actions. However, I have failed time and time again. After numerous short lived careers, huge heart aches, and personal failures, I have come to the realization that, indeed maybe they were all correct before. Maybe indeed I am a nobody.
If it is truth, then all my past failures, misfortunes, and regrets can be rationally, logically, and justifiably explained […]
Why Dreams is better than reality?
Why is Dream better than reality?
Why is dreams better than reality? Why dream is better than reality?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi / sci fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, MMORPG , Interstellar , The Matrix , Avengers , X-Men , etc etc, they are much more interesting, full […]
I took a nap and had a scary dream. I was in New York City and it was 9/11 , 2001 and I was standing at the bottom and just started running away because I saw the trade center start to come down and I just saw everyone scream and running with me and sirens every where .Holy shit it was so scary. I’m feeling wierd right now because it really makes me angry that like thousands of people died . All these terrorist attacks even today are like out of control. Isis in Paris … Apparently they are in my state Virginia targeting at […]
i need something to dream about..
something to do in the future
my family needs me to get out home one day…
oh god! i dont have where to go!
i dont have dreams or anything!!
there is someone that have a dream?
i just need something…
Depression stole my Education.
It stole my all of my Friends.
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
I’m here because I don’t want to die. I want to believe that I have something to offer this world, and that my current suffering will lead to a day where I can turn it around and use it to help others. Thing is, I’ve been depressed my whole life. I feel like from the moment I was born, I was given a cluster of psychiatric diagnoses instead of a personality. I was a problem to be solved, not a person to be loved. I was not human; I was merely human labels. Autism at first, because I’d rock endlessly in place. Then bipolar, because […]