My bdd has reached an all time high
I stand in front of the mirror and watch as my body grows
I feel gross
I used to be the skinny, gorgeous one
Now I always feel fat and ugly
Add that to my crappy personality and you have a real winner right?
I have no real friends, no one to talk to
I have a new addiction: sexting to random strangers online
i used to be the good girl
The attention makes me feel good, hot, strong
it’s also good for my social anxiety.
I wish I could be so confident with the people I know
No one around me knows my dirty little secret
What I am now: a closet slut with an eating disorder and no friends
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omg i can only imagine how awful you feel. i am probably old enough to be your grandmother but those same painful issues about being fat and needing the attention of guys still haunt parts of my awareness. Sweetheart, you are not a bad girl. you deserve tenderness andim betting that if you hang in there you will find it. you must find a counselor or older woman you can trust will all the things you are feeling so ashamed about. weve all been there, trust me