so my school decided to give out suicide prevention bracelets that say “Celebrate Life” and “Everyone Matters”. i think its crap, but i guess its for the recent senior who committed suicide last month..so i guess ill wear it.

been kind of happy lately only because i am with my first actual boyfriend and im talking to my best friend again who has recently began to cut herself again. I’m the only one who knows at this point and i cant do anything about it because shes been doing it forever, and doesnt listen to anyone anyway. This is a trigger for me and my family likes to pick on me and call me names, so i came home and i cut. again. Gonna get slapped tomorrow, but who cares? not me thats for sure.

I just dont know what to do about my family and our issues. I know that you guys give great advice because ive been reading the posts for a while now and you know about depression and problems. I constantly tell people that im fine, but  im not. I dont care about anything anymore and everyone thinks im the same person i was 2 years ago. its frustrating.