I am straight. Completely straight. But i will not deny that making out with another girl while under the influence does not bother me at all. My best friend and i do that every now and then and its never been a big deal, its always just been something funny that we sorta joke about. But as she has been deciding to take her life more seriously the last few days.. i realize more and more every second how i feel about her. and i love her. i truely love her. but its not in a “I want to marry you” way… but its alot more than just “Your my best friend/ Your like my sister.”
im scared to say anything else.. cause i know she will see this.. thats why i am considering getting rid of this account and possibly making a new one..
Idunno why this has me confused.. im not sexually confused.. im not confused about how i feel about her.. but im confused.. and im even mo0re confused about what im confused about?
If you understood what i just said, then that makes one of us! but these are just the words that are flowing from my head to my fingers..
but i without a doubt love her, and in some way i am in love with her..
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itdno different then if it was a boy you were in love with, is it? Is it? and if your looking for a big sister, well i cant help in that way; but I can be a big Gay brother and not let anything happen to you as long as you behave yourself; could introuduce you to some gf’ of mine that are totally lesbian.
not what i meant lol
please do not think i am a homophobe! i support gay pride, gay rights, gay marriage, all of it. just i myself am straight
Donnie
Huh?
Hm. Do you ever want to make out with her when you’re not under the influence? Like, are you sexually attracted to her in any way? Just trying to get it straight. No pun intended. Because maybe you’re bisexual. But it’s certainly possible to love your friends deeply. If maybe that’s what you’re confused about.
when im not under the influence, i see her a really pretty girl and that shes ‘hot’ and everything. but i dont wanna make out with her when were walking around school or anything
Okay. So you see the beauty in your best friend; that’s normal. Do you ever tell each other you love one another, in a friendly way?
yeah all the time
Well, I’m not entirely sure what you’re confused about but, I guess you’re not sure either ? All I can say is that you may be over thinking it or causing yourself unnecessary worry over it. The fact is that you love her, and there’s nothing you can do change it. Also it doesn’t matter if you love boys or girls or both, you know? Just try not to worry about it.
About your friend wanting to commit suicide, and you’ve tried everything to change her mind or get her help and now you don’t know what to do. Maybe it’s best to stay in contact with her over the holiday. I know it’s hard when you’re emotionally involved, but try to stay calm and remind her that you’re on her side and that you’re not leaving.
i do have a tendency to over think things.. o___O
Hey Abselom,
Listen to GoodGirl…she knows her stuff…she just sucks worse than i do at e-mail…hehehe.
Love ya GoodGirl…in a friend sorta way ayup
Amakua
@Ama; I think we’re tied for worst email correspondent, last time I checked. ;] hehe
Love you too, in a friend sorta way.
Sorry for jumping on your post Abselom
Hey GoodGirl…would love to yak for a wee while before I find my pillow again…but too lazy to go back and look for Molly’s post to hijack. Also too lazy to start a new one…nothing really important to say…other than I’m gonna eat a whole dozen doughnuts tomorrow…all by myself…unless you can thumb your way up here that is…hehehe. And a full half of them are gonna be chocolate…yup…mmmm…chocolate.
Love ya GoodGirl…in a friend way…although I’ve seen your picture…you are pretty damn gorgeous as well…ummm …yeh
Reprobate correspondent…over and out
Amakua
Don’t worry about jumping on it 🙂
Personally I think people need to stop over thinking these things. Is it really you that you listen to when you think too hard? Just go with the flow and don’t stress too much about labels and things. I tell my friends I love them all the time, well the ones that I love anyway! It just means simply that. Personally I don’t worry about finding people attractive, you just do or do not. Love your friend in whatever way feels comfortable for you.
xx
thank you so much, and yeah i really do over think things.. i do it all the time, and over every little thing. i dont know why i was even confussed.. i really dont but thank you for your words <3