To kill myself or not kill myself? That is the question. I hate decisions. In the mornings I can’t even decide which pair of socks to wear, so how do I prepare myself to determine a life or death situation? If I choose to live, how do I know if I’ll be happy someday? Will I just have to wait and see? But what if it turns out my life never turns around, and I just spiral deeper and deeper into this  pit of nothingness, living everyday regretting that I never ended myself? That’s the thing, I’ll never know.. and that’s what I hate about decisions. You choose one thing, and you never know how you’re life might have changed if you had chosen the other. It might have been just a pair of socks, but for all you know if you had chosen the other pair your life could have taken a complete opposite turn. So… what do I do?
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6 comments
I would buy lots of socks.
No. Seriously. No one can make your decisions for you. So I’m not really sure what or why you are asking. I understand the feelings…and I wish I could help you…but I can’t. Now if you would like to know how to make your life a little better…I dunno…I might have a few suggestions. But asking random strangers to determine if your life has value or not? whether you should end your life? which socks to wear today? Well those are only for you to decide…sorry. That’s the shitty part of free will eh?
Peace
Amakua
Hi amakua get in touch xx
OMG How are you Molly? Did you want to make a post or would you like to email? Myself I’m having a problem even checking my email lately…but I would like to know how you’re faring.
Lots of Love
Amakua
Hi amakua I’m fine life is putting along nicely cept for a few downs here and there how bout you?
I don’t know, I just hate decisions. Especially ones like this, because they’re so.. permanent.
That is the truth now isn’t it…permanent…atleast from the perspective of this reality. I am a fairly non-decisive person myself…so sometimes I leave off making decisions and go with the flow. I usually regret any hasty decisions I make.
So if you decide to continue with this life…what will you do then? I dunno…death just seems like more of the same to me at this point…not really a solution or answer…merely another unknown and another question.
Sorry it’s been soo hard on ya
Peace
Amakua