Its that time of day again. The time where everything is dark and hopeless. Where everything is horrible end  everything is falling apart.
This happens everyday and there is nothing I can do about it.
Some nights are worse than others… Last night was the worst in a few weeks. so tonight is not as bad but it is still horrible and incredibly painful..
I wish I could feel total numbness. Or smoke some bud. Take a few shots of vodka or whiskey. Anything to stop these thoughts for the time being..
cutting is not goin to help me and it’s not what I want To do. I want to drink until I can’t move out of my seat. I want to smoke until marijuana comes out of my lungs without having to smoke.
anything to get rid of this everyday pain
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I can only say that numbing yourself won’t solve the root of your problems, rather it will distract you from them for a time. I suggest clearly identifiying the cause of your sadness and focusing on mending that.
I’ve been trying to do that for a few years now.. It isn’t working very well
Then perhaps you should try a different method of examining yourself. There has to be some root causes. The three main ones appear to be: biological, past trauma, and current siutation. Figuring it out is like troubleshooting any problem; you start with the most vague questions and work your way down until you’ve pinpointed the cause. Unfortunately for depression there are usually several causes…but figuring them out will help you focus and devise a plan for getting better!
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