I hate him.
I hate his stupid smile.
I hate his fucking dimples.
I hate his muscly arms, his toned torso and his thighs and calves,
I hate the way my tummy flips when i think about his voice,
I hate his fucking voice, how soothing it is, how it makes me want to dance every time i hear it
I hate how much he makes me laugh and smile, how he understood my humour when no one else did
I hate how comfortable yet on edge i felt around him, like flying in the air but being spun around at the same time
I hate how  much i trusted him, and told him all of my secrets and let myself be emotionally carried by him
i hate his squeaky laugh that always made me laugh as well, and all the private jokes we shared together
i hate the cute nicknames we gave eachother and how special i felt when he said it or typed it
i hate how much i depend on him, how even when hes left me i still depend on him
i hate how much i talk about him, how i always bring him up in conversation somehow
i hate his warm embraces, and his protecting arms wrapped around me
i hate the memories i feel and think of whenever i hear a song or smell a scent, or taste a taste or go to a place
i hate you i hate you i hate you
i hate you so much because i still am so fucking in love with you when you’re not even here
you dont even care, youre gone from my life but your all that i think about
i hate that I’m up late dedicating a post to you on here.
but most of all i hate how i would still take you back even after all the pain and suffering you’ve caused me.
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scar,
time to forget about him hate is a strong word.
i wish i could, i want to stop thinking about him but he will never leave my head
The thing is she doesn’t really hate him at all. Just the way he made her feel when he left, ruining all the memories they had and making it hurt to think about them. I feel your pain scar, I’ve been there too. My favorite part of “10 things i hate about you” is when Julia stiles reads the poem about heath ledgers character. This post reminded me of that movie. Except in real life things don’t always wrap up in a pretty little package.
Ah you understand exactly!! Its nice to have someone who gets it, what happened to you that you understand? its an awful feeling, the worst part is everyone warned me not to keep going back but when your in love you cant stop, its like a drug and without it you feel lost and empty. Yeah, i based this post around that film its so amazing, i just saw him pop up on a facebook photo and it filled me with anger, mostly at myself as how much i still care for him and miss every day.
I used to feel the same. I was with someone that used and abused me. But I loved him, and I thought he did too. But I was wrong, he just loved to hurt me, mentally and physically.
I know it’s hard, but leave him. It will be the best thing you could ever do !
You will miss him, because you love him. But it’s always for the best.
I hope whatever you choose to do, makes you happy.
thanks for the advice, I guess right now I’m just going to see what fate brings me to, I cut him out about 2-3 months ago and if were meant to be together then we will be i guess!
scar,
it’s not that i don’t get it it’s more like what i’m telling you,you don’t want to hear,the bottom line is you need to move on. sorry if i seem calus i’m a older person and want you to do the right thing i’m on your side.