Im 51 and tired of life. My life hasn’t been terribly traumatic although there have been a few things. It hasn’t been averagely successful either. Im shy, have no friends, not really interested in any b/c they’re rarely fulfilling or interesting to me or am I interesting to them. I’ve enjoyed things in life and those things have all gotten very old and tired. I’ve tried many new things along the way…
I am married to my best friend for 25 years and it is the same old boring tired situation. I have a child with disabilities I have given my all to for many years and im tired. About 7 mos ago i felt this way. then i met a man online and we had a wonderful, beautiful love affair online. life was wonderful, beyond anything i’d ever known. we broke up today. he didn’t want to pursue our relationship in real life, only on the internet. We decided it was over and I told him i was sad and empty and then deactivated my account.
I am right back where I was 7 mos ago, only much much worse. I have no desire to wake up tomorrow. I can’t envision anything being happy or fulfilling in my life. Im not interested in trying. i c the rest of my life as an endless stretch of boring tired not worth it days to try to fill.
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Not gonna kid ya, I know the tired bit and I can imagine it only gets worse. How do people make it to 80 and beyond sometimes I wonder.
You could try a radical change. You’re not really doing your best friend any favors by seeking emotional support elsewhere. If you’re truly close, tell him this and maybe he’ll agree with you and join you as you move to Alaska or Zimbabwe. I know you’ve got responsibilities with your child, but people find ways to make it work quite often. Money right? Does it matter if you don’t have much? If you’re willing to be done at this point, what the heck do you need that savings for anyway? I intend to always have a reserved amount I can zip off to Bermuda or somewhere and say fuck it all – here’s my last hurrah. Life is dripping away from us. Should we let it keep dripping until we’re unable to make those choices anymore? You might be surprised to find you’re not that tired after all.