this passing year has been a blur.
I don’t want to sit here and just ***** about my life, but it seems like that’s all I can do for myself. I’ve thought of killing myself during school while in school, I know I have an okay life
I really don’t know why I’m so sad,or depressed numb maybe I feel like the after feeling when you eat Mc.donals and you just feel so lazy and blowded.
I go to therapy one a week, take meds.
I think I have friends, I hate that feel like I’m in a puddle of self pity, maybe I am
I thought I was gonna be better once I started going to school again, I’m a teenager so it won’t always be like this right? Sometimes I just want to jump in the pool of our schools swimming pool. I’m doing that after school. I won’t die, just get wet.
I always want to fall of the window of my room, and or class rooms. I never feel Like I’ll die just get really hurt, I see my mom crying in my head when I try to jump. I want people to miss me. I think I’m nothing. Nobody’s reading this.
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Someone is reading this.
You don’t have to be able to answer all the questions about how you’re feeling. That’s the thing I’ve always struggled with, being able to give a list of why I feel this way. I like your analogy about McDonalds, I may steal that and use it myself.
You aren’t alone in feeling like this and people would miss you.
Thank you, my teachers say I’m good with metaphors