She’s gone.

I ruined it all, my best friend was and maybe still is going through a really hard time and I was there for her. But one night, I was in the exact same position as her. I wanted to die, I wanted to cut myself, pop some pills and she did nothing to help me, she did nothing to help me get through it. I was so angry at her that I decided to post something on Tumblr about how angry I was at her and asking why she didn’t give a fuck. She got so angry when she read that. She messaged me saying that I had no right to post what I did (and she was right, I shouldn’t and had no right to post it), and that she was to busy dealing with her own problems to give a fuck about mine. That killed me inside and at the point I didn’t want to read anymore of the message but I did. It said that she should have never told me what was wrong and that I had no right to know. I responded to her message. I told her that she should have been there for me. This happened on October 17th, 2012 and today is November 26th, 2012 and everyday I can’t help but think about what happened and that I need my best friend back. I’ve tried calling, texting, messaging on facebook, tumblr, and twitter. But she unfollowed me from Tumblr and Twitter. If I could go back in time and never post that then I would but she was my best friend and now she’s gone.