I’ve been thinking about posting this since early this morning because I feel like I never got the chance to express myself in my post last night ,whenever I’m writing these posts I always criticize myself  and never fully release what I want to while writing them.
I’ve been struggling to keep it together lately compared to last year around this time. I let people stomp all over me and control me and I just let it happen I guess because of my own negative thoughts about myself,but lately I can’t keep up with the expectations people have of me because I seem so put together people ask say things like “this isn’t you.. you need  to get back on track” it may seem silly because it bothers me.
What hurts the most is feeling dull as if all the personality was sucked out of me like when people put me down and discourage me from trying something new or criticize me for being depressed. When I hear these things being said to me in the moment all I can do is sit there and listen and when it’s over I feel like crying because it’s so painful that I feel like it validates that there’s something wrong with me and whenever I want to go out for something I want all I can hear is the negative thoughts and painful memories.
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Hey, I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling down, but I suppose we all feel down from time to time. Maybe next time someone says something that upsets you, you should let them know that its upsetting you. Often times, people don’t realize that what they are saying is actually hurting someone’s feelings. Also, try to block out the negative thoughts you have about yourself. I’m sure that you’re a good person at heart, and that’s all that matters.
I would but I’m afraid of the backlash I’d get from saying so. I will try because I wouldn’t want to become a bitter person that is the last thing I would want