Enough is enough

I am so sick and tired of always trying to be strong and to try and be happy because of my current living situation her at my friends house.  There is nothing wrong with my friend I think she is a lovely person. But she has issues of her own and I know that it doesn’t help me being around her like I am all the time . But it is a safer for  me and I feel so different out of everyone and being bullied at school I want too feel better I really do but there are just so many days were I don’t even want to deal with myself and alll the things around me. I just want to feel like and I am in a safer place but ther girl I live with has been attacking me emotionally and I know she cares about me or if she does really  at all  I just want to get passed this but  I really just feel like I don’t belong anywhere or that the people I live with just don’t get that I’m sad and I’m sorry I don’t always have my mask on