Even if you feel low now, remember you will feel better eventually, this cannot last, eventually you are going to laugh again, you are going to feel joy and love, no emotion is eternal.
I reconsided a freindship I destroyed a few years ago, its part of my new view on the world. thats positive.
I relised that the only think in life that really matters is finding someone to love and care for. So I am focusing on finding her 🙂
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. -Harriet Beecher Stowe
But… people always leave me.
I love them, care for them, I would give my life for them, but they won’t do the same.
They want me to leave them alone, if I’m low.
I usually block people out, people at school think I’m boring and crazy… I’m an 18 year old female, by the way… I feel alone and fat. ugly. stupid. tired as hell.
people leave, so why should I live with them?
I hate myself so why should I live with me?
I remember, I think it was Marylin Monroe who said that, if you don’t want me at my worst then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
They don’t deserve you. Find other people, people who DO deserve you 🙂
Not all people are jerks, case in point this forum right here. And even if no one else likes you, I still do! If no one else loves you, I do! I will hug you, when you’re feeling down. I will talk to you when no one else will listen. Here we actually all listen, so just talk 🙂
The days are not shitty if you believe they aren’t. There can be even just one tiny little thing that was good today and I believe it’s still worth living for.
You want to live, because there are going to be better days.
The first thing you have to do is accept who you are. I mean who cares if they think if you are boring, crazy or whatever.
To be honest when I was in highschool i found lots of very inmature people, and when i started University I found much more mature people, of course there were still many dumb ones 😛
They can not make you feel bad, if you dont allow them, even if you feel you are ugly, bad or whatever, it is not true, is just this negative way of seeing life that makes you feel that. Be more positive 🙂 You are going to find people that will appreciate you for what you are, just hold on and you will see, and even if it seems like it, not everyone has tons of very meaningful friends.
Btw, RuinsOfTheVoid is right when saying that the meaning of life is finding someone to love and care for, but what most of us fail to realize, is that we already have that someone, is ourselves.
A very famoust writer ones said something that reads along the lines “I have commited only one sin in this life, I haven’t been happy”. And he is right, we come here, with plenty of opportunities, and thanks to the way we feel, we take the worst of every posible situation. And i am not saying your situation is not bad. No I am saying that there is people out there that would take it in a completely different way and somehow make it better. why? Because things can get better if we work for it.
If you need a friend, you let me know, I am pretty busy in general, but i wouldnt mind at all exchange mails and such.
And one thing I believe, strongly, even when i want to die so many times, i hang on, because i feel that dying would be the way easy, I own to myself to be better, and get better, to be happy, if there is any meaning to this world, it has to be experience it at the fullest we can. And help others along the way 🙂
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Even if you feel low now, remember you will feel better eventually, this cannot last, eventually you are going to laugh again, you are going to feel joy and love, no emotion is eternal.
I reconsided a freindship I destroyed a few years ago, its part of my new view on the world. thats positive.
I relised that the only think in life that really matters is finding someone to love and care for. So I am focusing on finding her 🙂
ILU Ruins
Ruins,
Wow you’re fast!
Soulless,
Know that today you just beat your personal record of how many days you’ve lived!
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. -Harriet Beecher Stowe
One of my all time favorite quotes (:
Dear Ruins,
But… people always leave me.
I love them, care for them, I would give my life for them, but they won’t do the same.
They want me to leave them alone, if I’m low.
I usually block people out, people at school think I’m boring and crazy… I’m an 18 year old female, by the way… I feel alone and fat. ugly. stupid. tired as hell.
people leave, so why should I live with them?
I hate myself so why should I live with me?
Love,
Dawn
Dear Sinine.
True… but why do I want to live many shitty days?
Dear Beauty,
Thank you! <3
I remember, I think it was Marylin Monroe who said that, if you don’t want me at my worst then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
They don’t deserve you. Find other people, people who DO deserve you 🙂
Not all people are jerks, case in point this forum right here. And even if no one else likes you, I still do! If no one else loves you, I do! I will hug you, when you’re feeling down. I will talk to you when no one else will listen. Here we actually all listen, so just talk 🙂
The days are not shitty if you believe they aren’t. There can be even just one tiny little thing that was good today and I believe it’s still worth living for.
Sinine…
I’m on my knees thanking you from the bottom of my heart with tears in my eyes…
thank you.
please read my story, my first?
Hey Sinine,
I thought: I will help you remember, but you don’t have to if you don’t want to. ( You’d read my story)
How are you today?
Lots of Love,
Dawn
You want to live, because there are going to be better days.
The first thing you have to do is accept who you are. I mean who cares if they think if you are boring, crazy or whatever.
To be honest when I was in highschool i found lots of very inmature people, and when i started University I found much more mature people, of course there were still many dumb ones 😛
They can not make you feel bad, if you dont allow them, even if you feel you are ugly, bad or whatever, it is not true, is just this negative way of seeing life that makes you feel that. Be more positive 🙂 You are going to find people that will appreciate you for what you are, just hold on and you will see, and even if it seems like it, not everyone has tons of very meaningful friends.
Btw, RuinsOfTheVoid is right when saying that the meaning of life is finding someone to love and care for, but what most of us fail to realize, is that we already have that someone, is ourselves.
A very famoust writer ones said something that reads along the lines “I have commited only one sin in this life, I haven’t been happy”. And he is right, we come here, with plenty of opportunities, and thanks to the way we feel, we take the worst of every posible situation. And i am not saying your situation is not bad. No I am saying that there is people out there that would take it in a completely different way and somehow make it better. why? Because things can get better if we work for it.
If you need a friend, you let me know, I am pretty busy in general, but i wouldnt mind at all exchange mails and such.
And one thing I believe, strongly, even when i want to die so many times, i hang on, because i feel that dying would be the way easy, I own to myself to be better, and get better, to be happy, if there is any meaning to this world, it has to be experience it at the fullest we can. And help others along the way 🙂