hi everyone, for the past month ive been in hospital. you may of read the other posts but if you didnt then ill explain, when i tried to commit suicide my mum found me and i was only just concious, i told her to write on here and say sorry to all of you wonderful people. the things i did to try make this work was, poison, overdose and cutting my wrists and it would of worked if mym mother didnt come in my room. i left her and my family a letter explaining further details of this website and told her it was important. the first few weeks of being in hospital i was in a coma and on life support, you may be thinking then how did i tell my mother? well it was in the letter and it was the few words i mumbled out just before i passed out. i nearly got life support unplugged a couple of times so i was pretty much fighting for my life. im in rehab at the moment for all the damage Ive done to myself.
i was ment to die. idk wheater to be thankful or angry about surviving… my life is 15 times worse than it was before i tried. when i woke up in that hospital bed i didnt know where i was or what happened and then i was told everything…. i screamed and cried i even tried to escape a couple of times but i couldnt walk…. i proberly mean nothing to you, but i just wanted to say i only just survived but i have a very slow and pain ful recovery… i could still die yet but i sure hope so. im waiting for some test results to come back for my…. stomach, liver and heart. the docs think ive damaged my body prety severely. i have taken an hour so far to write this as i have to use one hand and my sight is bad…. as i cut my wrist too deep and snipped my artery.
im just a worthless kid… aint i? im sorry too all the people who are on this website that i couldnt be here for you when you needed help. i have no more hope left for my future anymore…. i deserved to die and i deserved to be gone, but unfortunatly im alive for the time being anyway…. i really cant take this life anymore… but un til i get outta rehab im stuck with it. ive been out of a coma for a week now… and only just earned computer privilege ;l
sorry for wasting your time reading this, at the moment i just need hellp to get through this…
my life is meaningless now. im sorry agien for wasting your time. i bet you wish i was dead too.
i love and care for you all….
alone and abandoned xxx bye for now.
11 comments
you seem like a really strong person. I am so sorry you werent able to reach the peace you wanted. I really hope that you can remain strong and know that your story has helped me. i dont know you but i wish you the best and you will remain in my prayers… much love <3
thankyou, im not a strong person. im more usless and dumb. how have you neen sunflower?
i dont believe that… and how good could any of us be if we are a frequent user on SP <3
please belive that, because it is true, i am honestly good for nothing. dont you think i was ment to die? dont you think i should of! wouldnt you if you were suffering in pain like me?
it sounded like you were ready to die yes and i understand not wanting to live and i am so sorry you are forced to live with so much pain… but maybe even though it is cruel to be forced to live you were meant to live a littlr longer. your story has already helped me… im planning to take my own life soon and ill be sure to find a place no one will “save me” maybe you were meant to live to try and help others… you seem like a good person
please dont think about suicide yet, see how usless i am! i just helped everyone to know more on what and not to do!!!!! i now deserve to die! i am so so so sorry! please dont take your life soon! please, because if you go then i will too. just please reconsider it! you coould still end up alive! whats going on for you? please reconsider it. please tell me whats going on for you and why you want to die.
im ready to do it, i might even try agien tonight.
If you feel you need to go through with it, that’s up to you. Eternal sleep does beat having to deal with this crap. On the other hand if you feel like giving life another chance, we’ll be here ready to listen.
You are not worthless. Please don’t do it. You obviously care about people. Also, it was not a waste of time for me to read this. I’m glad i did. Don’t give up
thankyou, but i dont know what to do. im scared, alone, and pathetic.
From your story, you seem like none of that. You seem strong, independant, and a hardworker. You go after what your going for, but what your going for is.. not really a good acheivment. First, I think you should give life a try. You may find someone to help you. If it takes some time, thats alright. You always have us to talk to! So your never alone. If your scared, were here! And no, your not pathetic.