Im alternating between eating disorders. I feel so fat and ugly. Nobody likes me. Sorry that I annoy everyone. You know, you might feel bad for yourself because I “cramp your style” or “make you uncomfortable”, but how do you think i feel to hate myself. To have a meltdown almost everyday in school, but have no where to go. My thighs now look like tigers, covered in the stripes I gave to myself from cutting in the bathroom. I have no self control. Its a bit understandable when I have no where to turn. The few friends I have really don’t like me, but to be fair I can’t stand them either. The most perfect boy in the world who used to like me last year, doesn’t like me now either. I have no one. I miss my friends from the hospital.They were some of the best friends Ive ever had. I didn’t feel like I was burdening them. They understood me. But no they’re gone and I’m left all alone. At home. At school. My medicine has been making me so nauseous, so Ive stopped taking it, so I basically have non stop withdrawal symptoms. Its so hard to go on. I though I was better– somewhat, but now i feel more miserable than ever before. There is no right place for me to fit in.
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abt1212
Stop worrying about your looks so much all my girls have been on the heavy side eerroowww! And you can slowly lose it. Remember it’s who you are that counts not what you look like. Beautiful on the inside is beautiful on the outside.
Hey,
just stop thinking about it. Just go and distract yourself and don’t think about your looks or anything. Just be. Play silly computer games if that helps or whatever. Don’t cut yourself. Try buying butterfly tattoos (the ones they sell for kids) and put them to your thighs.
World is a hard place. Sometimes I feel like all the good people have to deal with all the problems while some just live happy.
And you can always find new friends. If you feel like cutting yourself maybe you could write me email in stead or something
saphiraxD@gmail.com
What rocket man said…