Over years I have been abused, neglected, and heart-broken. Again, I thought it was just another night, I thought I had a loving girlfriend that would keep me going even when I was down. I was wrong in the fact that she talked about other men constantly. Saying how they hugged better than me, how they understood who she really was, and how I wouldn’t be as good as them. She kept talking about this one guy, and wouldn’t stop talking about him. While doing this, she expected me not to get jealous or angry. I did get jealous and told her I don’t enjoy her talking about other men while being in a relationship with her. She freaked out, saying how I acted like I own her, I needed to calm down.
The next day I went to her house. I knocked on the door, it seemed as if noone was home. I went to the window to her room and what I saw killed the remaining piece of my heart. She had been making out with the guy she had been talking about to me. I walked back home, I couldn’t face what I had seen. I called and told her what I had seen. She said she had commitment issues and that she had used me just to be able to get to him. She said she didn’t want me anymore and that I should just forget what had happened between us. I couldn’t face that she didn’t love me but I still loved her. But life was something I couldn’t face anymore. I tied a noose in my room, I put my neck into it. I had finally gotten to the point of where I could finally be free. But, I couldn’t do it, I just couldn’t. I’m still depressed and I just want to die but I don’t know what to do. Now I’m just another faded soul that noone cares about…. Just another faded soul…….
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That’s rough, man. There’s something about the love for another that just freakin’ hurts so badly when they don’t love you back. This is something I’ve only experienced in the last year, myself, but I know exactly what you mean. To see her cheating is one thing, but to have her say what she did is even more heart-breaking. I hope it makes it that much easier to get over her, but I won’t say that I expect that of you.
I’d feel like total shit, too. What are you to do now? Just suffer until you get over her or meet someone new? Is that acceptable? Is that indeed what will happen? I don’t know, and I’ll bet you don’t either. So that’s why you’re here and that’s why I’m commenting. My take on this is that although you may love her or have loved her, you believed that the feeling was mutual, so maybe that fueled your love. Now seeing that it wasn’t, maybe that will help you realize that your feeling of love is based on a lie, and therefore maybe unjustified. It’ll take some time to drill that into your head, but that’ll help you move on. She was….an experiene. And maybe only that. But now you’re that much more experienced and wise. That’s what you got out of it.