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Noose

Hello Noose, My Old Friend.

by silentshepherd 9/30/2016

written by silentshepherd

“This must be what death feels like”.
My body felt so cold and numb. My skin was dry, and my intake of air was obviously obstructed. I sat by the window of my dorm room on a Friday night, similar to many others, with a bundle of my twine twisting between my fingers.

I usually try to convince myself of ending my life on Friday or Saturday because it’s ideal for my roommates to be gone while I try to liberate myself from this absurdity. I have participated in suicidal gestures – even if they would be unbeknownst to anyone else. A full attempt usually is rather […]

9/30/2016 1 comment

wristcutters.

by fcuktpyos 8/25/2013

written by fcuktpyos

hello blog.

this is my first post.

i struggle with anxiety and major depression.

i’m not sure how to cope with anything. my parents misraised me and i have no friends.

everyone hates me and bullies me and thinks i should just kill myself, so why the fuck shouldn’t i..

all of my ex boyfriends said i was worthless and should.. so.. yeah..

nothing’s alright. i constantly feel the need to cut myself.

i constantly feel the need to tie a noose and hang myself.

i constantly feel the need to die. i’ve lost everything.

i don’t have a family, i don’t have friends.

my parents gave me up 7 months ago and made it […]

8/25/2013 2 comments

I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise 7/22/2013

written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

7/22/2013 4 comments

Bridges made of guns

by ISmiled 7/22/2013

written by ISmiled

Was the dream I had yesterday night. And that’s how I knew, tonight is the night.

I guess you could call it a sign, but I’m calling it an unconcious epiphany. I dreamt of a bridge made of guns, and that’s when it hit me, I’ll just shoot myself off a bridge this time! So I found the closest bridge to my house (a 20 minute bike ride away), and I’m prepping myself now.

I have the gun, the same one that shot off part of my shoulder. And my bike is outside the house, sitting there waiting for me to go grab it. I’m also debating […]

7/22/2013 3 comments

tried partial suspension hanging today

by amareshwarb 6/28/2013

written by amareshwarb

I tried partial suspension hanging today almost fainted could see floaters( white spots near my eyes) but the rope was long and my feet touched the ground panicked and struggled to remove the noose but succeeded to remove the noose will tryÂ with the shorter rope today night when every one is asleep. Here is a brilliant site explaining partial suspension hanging

http://jiutsu.motionsforum.com/t2-methods-partial-hanging-suspension

Now with a scar on my neck will definitely kill myselfÂ before this weekend

6/28/2013 6 comments

Well said, Victoria.

by DawgMom 6/6/2013

written by DawgMom

â€œI’m looking forward to the noose. Nothing better than a good hanging.â€ â€• Victoria Lamb

6/6/2013 4 comments

Same equation different variables

by just another nobody 5/24/2013

written by just another nobody

You wants to die. There’s no profound reason really. Doubt there is a standard set as to how one should live their adolescent life so it’s rather difficult to say whether or not you had an appropriate childhood. Your just tired. You can’t think straight, Your memory is shot and You can’t say you’ve ever truely loved another. Your mind is a constant cycle of nonsense and paradoxes, You don’t even know the truth anymore. All you know is if this is life you want little if nothing at all to do with it. It’s all a joke. A cruel prank played by fate. Your […]

5/24/2013 0 comment

Lost my coping mechanism.

by denidians 5/23/2013

written by denidians

I’m new so I’m sorry if I am not doing this right… Can I complain here? I’ve only read a little.

I had a hideous upbringing, a hideous adolescence… I joined the US military to escape home…

My very best friend in the whole world was someone I met online, actually. For years he was my confidant. Long story short, we met, fell in love. Much as I fled my home state, I up and fled my home country and moved to the other side of the world. Got into an excellent school, an excellent programme, doing all right. It was a struggle doing it, but everyone […]

5/23/2013 4 comments

Belt Method

by horloge 5/19/2013

written by horloge

How exactly does one commit suicide with a belt and a doorknob? Maybe this is a naive question but where does the other end go once you fasten the makeshift noose part?

5/19/2013 3 comments

Bye…?

by Bloodi 5/12/2013

written by Bloodi

Tortured.Â Yet not. WhyÂ do I feel so alone. Why do I still want to die. Why. Why. I’m a why kind of girl. Why don’t you care? Why does everyone hate me? Why do people lie when I know the truth? I carry around that noose.. Waiting for something to set me off. Waiting for that perfect timing to set in. Wanting it to be now instead of later. When the time comes.. Will I do it? Will I jump? Will I fall? I mean.. I’ve already fallen. And hit the ground hard. I’m broken. And people say I have no fucking reason to hate myself. […]

5/12/2013 2 comments

As I ay me down to sleep…

by acm3001 4/5/2013

written by acm3001

As I lay me down to sleep

I pray someone in my house will sneak

Up to my bed, pillow over my face

Perhaps with a gun make my room a discrase

My blood on the bed her tears on the floor

While my wife gets away and crys for me no more

Her life would be better with me in the ground

I wish to run away and never be found

My life is so hard, no I’m not the only one

Stupid Canada can’t get a gun

A hose to the window as I take a long nap

The engine runs hot I’m sick of this crap

Why death leavs me to struggle I’ll never […]

4/5/2013 0 comment

So Confused

by kissnm10 4/1/2013

written by kissnm10

I hate how inevitable it feels. Like, I can pretend all that I want to be happy or that I have purpose or whatever, but it doesn’t change my fate. Like I’m destined for suicide. It’s what I always come back to, and it’s getting harder and harder to say no to it anymore. I don’t want to say no. I just want to be done with all this pain, and this world only dishes out pain. ItÂ isn’t going to end in this lifetime, so it’s like my only shot is in the next. But shit, I’m a Christian, and suicide is a sin. Will […]

4/1/2013 1 comment

fucking done.

by I.cant.breathe! 3/14/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

i wish i could just run off the edge. just fly like a butterfly. I want to die. I want to die. but for real this time, i’m serious…so I have a knife, a rope, and a tall building…I’m not kidding. I’m dying, tired of living. the one person i care for is leaving, and they’re leaving me greiving. i’m done. so I’ll tie the noose, I’ll slip my head in, I’ll step up on the ledge, I’ll take the knife, I’ll stab my heart for the thousandth time, and I’ll fall, if the noose breaks i’ll fall…whatever happens…I’m sure i’ll die. I’m going to […]

3/14/2013 2 comments

Wait.

by I.cant.breathe! 3/5/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

She fell apart over a small error
She lives her life, filled with terror.
She cuts her skin, like it’s paper.
People try, but no one can save her.
She can tie a noose.
She can get a gun.
She can find a knife.
And she’d be gone.
She could drown in a tub.
She could OD on drugs.
She could defy gravity.
But she’s no coward.
So she sits in her head.
Dreaming of dead.
wishing to go.
wanting it to be so.
And so she will wait.
And she will take the pain.
She will stay sane.
As the world goes insane.
Ever […]

3/5/2013 2 comments

to a girl and her life

by why i dont no 3/3/2013

written by why i dont no

stop look stop look frees do nothing

look at the bodyÂ of the dying girl

look at the struggling form

of the girl who your friendÂ did love your friend and he loved her in return

look at the horror on her dying face

look at the mistake she made

to end her life on the end of a rope that swung her this self same day

she knew this as she died

she tryd she tryd she tryd

to take the noose from her neck and end all the liys

you stood ther for a second or too

your feet thay coud not move

you know thows 2 seconds nothing coud make you move

so to this day you […]

3/3/2013 0 comment

suicide by hanging

by matilda 2/17/2013

written by matilda

The doctors just gave me the diagnose schizophrenia. Actually I have suffered from it from since I was 12. I am 19 now.

It makes me sad, becourse I know that it will never go away, and I have to take pills for the rest of my life, and the bad periods will still be here to torment me.

I have found a rope, and have managed myself to tie a hangmans knot on it. Now the big step is to step up on the stool, tie the rope to the waterpipe under the ceiling, put the noose around my thin neck, and kick away the stool. […]

2/17/2013 4 comments

My last days

by mylastdays 2/15/2013

written by mylastdays

After studying leastÂ painfulÂ suicide methods for many weeks now, Â I came toÂ conclusionÂ that properly done partial suspension hanging is the least painful way out. Â And I do have a proof. Â Â This morning Â I tried my noose that I made yesterday from strong leather belt with strong, large D-ring style buckle (one of those “Lewis” designs), Â to “try and see the fit”.

I had the noose hanging from a staircase railing, put it around my neck. Â I lowered my knees and the very moment when I felt the noose closing tightly around my neck veins (without choking me), Â I realized that this would be “it”. Â My […]

2/15/2013 10 comments

Protected: Back In Your Arms

by IcelandicWolfie 1/18/2013

written by IcelandicWolfie

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

1/18/2013 6 comments

If I’m going out, I’m going out with a bang.

by I.cant.breathe! 1/10/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

She was such a lovely girl, always smiling and laughing, never without a friend. Until she left.
It started like a typical morning for her. the screamo waking her up in the morning she started her routine. getting her uniform on, then putting her hair in a bun, then her makeup. She turned off the music and went upstairs. 6:38 read the clock, time for her to go to the bus stop. She sneaked into her parents room and said goodbye to her mom. Then she went out the door. But not before putting an object that would change her life later in the day. […]

1/10/2013 1 comment

Is there anyone out there that gives a damn?

by Lonewolf421 12/29/2012

written by Lonewolf421

Well I’m 21 years old and seriously considering taking my life. I have no friends, have never had a relationship or even a chance to prove my worth to a girl. I stand alone day and night living this hell I call my life. I’m so depressed, frustrated and the feeling of hopelessness that washes over me is the worst. I feel as if this is it for me, this is going to be my life until they put me in the ground. The older I grow the more the loneliness and fear of being alone grows and it’s becoming a harsh realization that I […]

12/29/2012 7 comments

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