just my fault?

Emmm hi! Sorry if you can’t understand something I’m chilean.. Well I tried and tried not cutting but sometimes is the only way my parents are so strict and well they didn’t have a good teen life (I forgot the word sorry) so they are not sensitive my dad is a lawyer and he say “I lost my soul when I recive my career” and I’am like “ok dude (y)” and my mom well she is very strong so they say “you were such a good girl before why you change?” And now they don’t give me a chance to be who I am… I don’t ask for freedom I ask to be myself I can obey rules and I always did.. And no is impossible to look for help like a psychologist or a psychiatry because my parents think that if they can survive I can too and honestly I don’t think that they know how I feel they think I’m exaggerating everything