What’s up with all those people in my head. I am the voice saying kill and also the one saying don’t, I am the one saying you’re worthless nothing of a person that can’t even finish anything you start nor succeed in anything but also the one saying well, you’re not that bad, you did this and this and that, you’re just a bit exhausted.
I am a lazy person bored with life. I want many things but only for short moments of time, everything else is just emptiness. I hate the way I am and just don’t want to live like this. I tried to change but how can I when I don’t even know what I really want and who I really am, I am just a bunch of completely different people exchanging roles inside my head.
I start writing and then I delete the post because I read it myself before posting and it just looks stupid. I will not do that this time.
a fuck up,
tralala
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My mental process is pretty exhausting too.
Would it not be wonderful to just hear lounge music and no thoughts for 2 hours?
Or… no thoughts.
tralala,
love that name!
hey it’s becuase all those people voices are right you are good and you are bad! everyone is nobodys perfect,it’s kind of like that song should i stay or should i go!
it would be the best.