Right now…

Right now I would love too give up. I would love to fade away. I am done trying I am sick of living. I am not happy, I am sick of always having too grow up and be mature. I do my best too be a kid and have fun…. I’m not really that fun. I take things seriously half the time. I come on here and unwind a little bit of me is gone no more pretending like nothings wrong and I have too act okay. People who know me well enough can see right through me but most of the time I’m shut down and put on auto mode. With the smile on my face that everybody believes. I am done trying really… I need too keep going because making it is important I realize that but there is too much crap going on that making me want too push threw it all is challenging. It’s only a matter of time before I fade too black I’m no were too be found.