Never fathomed this would be the path I follow
Never knew I could stoop so low
Only I and he who had been involved would know
Because then only such a reputation could grow
Initially simply fooling around with a boy
Just an experimental joy
Suddenly I become a constantly used toy
Innocence – destroy
Pride in decisions transfiguring to remorse
Once hopes and goals blow off coarse
And he uses plentiful force
To do what none other would endorse
Just thought it would help me from my already broken heart
But it all seems to be tearing it even more apart
Who can I go to who won’t judge me for not being so smart?
Clueless… Just so clueless