embee…. While a lot of other people on here may not understand that feeling, i one hundred percent understand it, because i feel that way too. Im so sorry youre feeling that way. I dont know whats going on in your life, but i can tell you youre not alone. Im sorry.
“my turn to be selfish” I like that – so many people are so self absorbed and when you actually know pain and you know true sadness – hearing about everyones “first world problems” and their stupid meaningless problems gets to be too much.
It should be your turn to be selfish – in fact , give yourself time just for you – everyone else can/will wait .
I feel like I’m the glue for my own little world sometimes too – and quite frankly there is SO much truth behind saying you can’t help others if you don’t first worry about yourself . So do it . Something for you – because I for one am telling you that you deserve it.
froeverk
I’m the oldest of four, and my step-dad lost his job. It’s Christmas, I’ve been working extra shifts so that we can have presents under the tree this year. I’m in physical pain, because I have osteoporosis and several severe lung diseases. The pain keeps me up all night, so I’m failing all my classes. Two of my friends have tried to kill themselves and I’m the only one who can tell when they are going to try again. I can’t talk to anyone, because I am expected to handle things in adult ways on my own. And the worst part is, the bigger part of me thinks that if I weren’t such a baby I could help everyone. I should be able to do this. That’s what I’m here for. Everyone needs me and I’m letting them down because I’m not good enough.
“weren’t such a baby” . if you were a baby you wouldn’t be able to handle a quarter of the things you just described ~ i’d suggest finding someone who you can talk to (professionals definitely shouldn’t be overlooked! My best friends sometimes). You can only do so much – and sounds to me like you’re doing a damn good job at it .
~foreverk
You don’t need professionals, you are stable and collected. What you seem to be is overwhelmed; maybe a not too dramatic friend, weed or a book would do you good?
Yoga, meditation or something else which is physical and relaxing.
Not minimizing your situation or telling this will make you perfect again but you have the power of you own too get the life you want.
Without professionals.
Know that.
weed and a book sounds good 😛 don’t like talking to my friends because i don’t like to stress them out though :/ there is one teacher who knows everything though. thank you 🙂
Get new friends (if you can), not saying that you should ditch your old ones but they seem to bring drama and you don’t need that. Search for some calm and laid-back.
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embee…. While a lot of other people on here may not understand that feeling, i one hundred percent understand it, because i feel that way too. Im so sorry youre feeling that way. I dont know whats going on in your life, but i can tell you youre not alone. Im sorry.
What’s happening?
I just can’t hold the world together for everyone anymore. Especially since there is no one holding on to me. So now it’s my turn to fall.
I guess I should be glad I’m not alone… but I’m not. I was kind of hoping I was, I hate that anyone has to feel this. So I guess I’m sorry too.
Don’t hold it together then.
Trying too much is never a good thing.
its okay to let people see youre upset. If you dont, they may never realize you are hurt.
What if I’m not trying enough?
Tell us more?
“my turn to be selfish” I like that – so many people are so self absorbed and when you actually know pain and you know true sadness – hearing about everyones “first world problems” and their stupid meaningless problems gets to be too much.
It should be your turn to be selfish – in fact , give yourself time just for you – everyone else can/will wait .
I feel like I’m the glue for my own little world sometimes too – and quite frankly there is SO much truth behind saying you can’t help others if you don’t first worry about yourself . So do it . Something for you – because I for one am telling you that you deserve it.
froeverk
I’m the oldest of four, and my step-dad lost his job. It’s Christmas, I’ve been working extra shifts so that we can have presents under the tree this year. I’m in physical pain, because I have osteoporosis and several severe lung diseases. The pain keeps me up all night, so I’m failing all my classes. Two of my friends have tried to kill themselves and I’m the only one who can tell when they are going to try again. I can’t talk to anyone, because I am expected to handle things in adult ways on my own. And the worst part is, the bigger part of me thinks that if I weren’t such a baby I could help everyone. I should be able to do this. That’s what I’m here for. Everyone needs me and I’m letting them down because I’m not good enough.
“weren’t such a baby” . if you were a baby you wouldn’t be able to handle a quarter of the things you just described ~ i’d suggest finding someone who you can talk to (professionals definitely shouldn’t be overlooked! My best friends sometimes). You can only do so much – and sounds to me like you’re doing a damn good job at it .
~foreverk
thank you. i wish i had more to say to you but i can’t even express it. thank you so so much.
No one needs you.
It’s awesome that you can afford presents under the tree, my mom can’t and my father is a cheapskate.
It’s awful that you have so much pain.
I failed classes… It sucks according to others but does not matter according to me.
Make your own work?
You can talk here.
Your suicidal contacts has their own life to take care off, it’s not your responsibility.
You are only responsible for yourself!
You sound really loyal but you should focus more on your own well being for better life quality.
thank you 🙂 i got a job because i couldn’t stand the money issues any more.
You don’t need professionals, you are stable and collected. What you seem to be is overwhelmed; maybe a not too dramatic friend, weed or a book would do you good?
Yoga, meditation or something else which is physical and relaxing.
Not minimizing your situation or telling this will make you perfect again but you have the power of you own too get the life you want.
Without professionals.
Know that.
weed and a book sounds good 😛 don’t like talking to my friends because i don’t like to stress them out though :/ there is one teacher who knows everything though. thank you 🙂
Get new friends (if you can), not saying that you should ditch your old ones but they seem to bring drama and you don’t need that. Search for some calm and laid-back.
I am tempted sometimes… 😛 I really hate feeling selfish though, which is my whole complex right now :X
Sounds like you could ditch them all together, don’t stay for the feeling of selfishness.