I used to have hope. Â That things will get better and eventually I’ll have a good life and not be depressed anymore. Â But after 30 years of constantly trying and struggling with my mind and my life, I no longer have hope. Â I feel like I’ll be this way for the rest of my life- which doesn’t offer me much incentive to go on. Â Yet, this is reality. Â After 30 years and still like this, the probability of it all going away isn’t very likely. Â Sigh.
This meager and painful life is what I have to look forward to. Â That’s just great.
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My favorite song is “Suicide is Painless.”
bah,
Keep in mind everyone is in the same boat, I don’t know anyone that’s truly 100% happy except some insane people, life is ups and downs mostly downs, life is like a gas tank fill it up with good stuff and it runs smoothly for a while, fill it up with the cheap shit and it runs like crap and you have to burn that shit up to make room to put good stuff in, let it go to empty and just put a couple bucks in and your always worried, remember you are what you eat, and most importantly you are what you think! Think good and positive things.