While I am reminiscing on the memories that slowly but sweetly tortures my heart.
With all the thoughts running through my head.
Was there something that could be changed?
And somehow make all the pain that was created to go away
I don’t want you back
I want the happiness you brought to my heart
And knew someone cared
But I guess im not well enough or someone you would love to always be there
Now the days are surely getting harder
And im longing for your thoughts
The way you used to hold me
Did you think that I forgot?
I may not be what you want
But im someone that is begging on my knees
Somehow I am willing to say pretty please
I know we may go separate ways
And maybe my heart will break
But knowing that you were mine for this little amount of time
Will show me that I can fix my mistakes
And show you that I really do want you
And I will not make this break
I don’t know what I really mean
But you are someone who is very important to me
That I can be myself
I went through some rough times with you here
But trust me im all better now.
I can’t promise that ill make you mad
But I can try to make you one of the happiest men
I can’t promise you that I won’t be confused
But I can promise you that I will be here waiting for the clues
I may not be the prettiest or funniest girl
But ill try to make things worth the world and try to make you laugh while I cry.
In time things may change
But I will never forget what you have to say
But here me out for what I need to say before my soul starts to break
I miss you.
4 comments
i know this was a personal poem, but i felt i should tell you that the sentiments are beautiful. i continue to wait in agony every day for the woman i love to say something like this to me. i haven’t accepted the fact that she left me, because i have always been, am, and will always be totally and deeply in love with her…
i miss her so much, and i wish she missed me too.
your poem struck a chord with my hopes. it was both beautiful and painful.
thank you, and i am sorry for your heartache.
I am so sorry for your loss also.. you seem like a wonderful man and you will find someone who you will love. and she will love you. the problem is that he is always around me and he has no idea right now because i dont want him to be afraid of my feelings and i will lose him forever.. now i am only 15 and i will try to find someone else with all of the might that is still inside of my body. all i get are compliments saying that im so funny so pretty and nice. all of that.. but i dont feel complete or atleast in balance without him. he was there for me through my attempt at suicide and now the bond is broken and probably will never be restored.. i would love to chat with you and see if i could try to help you with anything.. even though i am young i have experienced more than a normal 15 year old.. you hang in there okay(: here is my e-mail. samanthamcgoff@yahoo.com
i appreciate your thoughts and words. but like many other lovesick fools, i have no eyes or heart for anybody else. like you, i feel out of balance and incomplete without her in my life. i feel like if i ever were to even try to be with someone else, than it would all be like settling for second best. it wouldn’t be fair to my own heart, or the other person. that is why my plan of suicide is my only option remaining. i can honestly say that as long as i am still alive, i will try whatever i can to be with her again. the only way i will stop trying is to stop breathing, and it would seem that is the only way to give her what she wants… a life without me.
zach should open his eyes and see what is in front of him. but sometimes, it takes some people a little help to open their eyes. do not be afraid of losing him. all love requires the risk of loss, but if you are strong enough you will find that the benefit will outweigh the risk.
Well i surley hope she realizes what is infront of her! no way in hell i want you to commit suicide trust me not the best solution.. even tried it and this was before i was with him or realized i fell for him. but he was there for me throughout everything and tried to get into the hospital.. and once i showed that i truly cared for him and knew what i love you meant things started to fade and the emotions in my life did also. things grew numb and all i do now is to try to show him that i am better while all i am doing inside i longing for him to say i love you to me one more time. :/ but dont give up on your life please dont try to make it the best you can.. it is okay to mourn but to quit is not a good option i hope she will come to realize how amazing you seem and just by reading these couple posts you sent me i can tell that you truly care for her and will do anything to have her back in your life.