Im 19. 20 in April.
One thing I would wish for is to feel special again. I realized today that the last time I really felt special was an 8th grade orchestra concert and even that was ruined in the end. I’ve felt like an outsider for years. I’ve felt worthless, helpless, unappreciated, Etc. I just wish, even if just once, I could feel like I mattered, like people actually noticed when I’m around. I wish people would take me seriously, but instead I’m alienated and told I’m over reacting or I’m being stupid… The worst part is the people that are hurting me most are my family. What do you do when you get to the point where the only people that can help you don’t even listen to you?
I don’t expect them to change but is it to much to just want to feel special? Just for a moment?
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@sweetmorhea,
Maybe it sounds a little bit crazy, but you have influence on feeling special. Maybe your family won’t gave that feeling, but other people will. I feel special when I do something for people who can’t do that, like going to shop at the supermarket for older people because they can’t. And when I bring them the things, they are so lovely and grateful that they make me feel special. Go look for something that makes you feel special, I know that there must be at least one thing. Good luck!
I feel you – I know it’s terrible to feel invisible and unappreciated, but like @engeItje said, you have a say in how you feel, and if you find that thing that makes you feel special, you’ll feel great. Maybe go out and meet someone new, and with that new friendship, you can help THEM do something, and feel special again from the gratitude or attention they give you. GIve it a try. Good luck, darling (:
I understand what your saying and I do that. The feeling I’m talking about is the one only someone else can create. The one where someone does something for you, not because you asked them or because you did something first. I want someone to put me first for a moment and do something because they know it would make me smile. When someone does something just to let you know they care. I want a feeling that I didn’t have to struggle to get myself. Everything I do is for other people, I just wish someone would notice it. I don’t know if I’m making any sense or if I just sound selfish.
We’re all special in our own way.