Fuck

I put the gun in my mouth. I count to five. Each second goes by like hours in a day. 4 I flash thru memories those that were good those that were bad 3 a strange calm washes over me like it’s already over. 2my body tenses once more before it goes limp forever 1 it’s time my heart beat gets bigger. I pull the trigger… I’m still here the gun didn’t go off. What’s this mean. I try again nothing each click teasing and taunting one more second I get taunted by life. I can’t even die. Fuck